Spent some time in the chapel this afternoon praying before the Blessed Sacrament, asking God to strengthen me and encourage me on my job hunt and to forgive me of my sins and have mercy on me so that I may receive His help and blessings.
As I prayed fervently for encouragement I opened my eyes and noticed a pamphlet stuck between the two seats in front of me. It was partially opened to a page and I felt inclined to read it. I opened it to that page and in it was a lesson about Paul's conversion. It said Paul's story did not end with his conversion, that he had to continue striving and working towards holiness to fulfill the plan that God had for him, and how if he had not done these things diligently he would have missed out on God's plan and would have probably fallen back on his old ways. This seemed to speak directly to my heart since my being stuck in my old, worldly ways has been the crux of my problem this whole time, preventing me from diligently seeking work and fulfilling the plan that God has for me.
I still felt fearful about my job search and about failing or looking foolish to others, so I pleaded with God to please be with me when I am searching and when I am speaking or asking questions, and to let His words be my words and I was still feeling apprehensive., but then I read the end of the lesson about Paul. It literally said that I have nothing to fear because God will be with me wherever I go. I knew at that moment that God had answered me there in the chapel.
I went out with my newfound courage and faith in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and visited some local pharmacies to inquire about employment. I was still feeling a bit apprehensive but after some prayer and with courage from God's message I was able to meet with people at the pharmacies and ask them about hiring.
When I returned home I thanked God for what He has done for me this day and for sustaining me for so long, and for my wonderful parents who have helped me through all this time.
God is truly great and honorable. Thank you Father, Jesus, the Holy Spirit and Mary. Amen.
Gabriel
updated 3-13-13
